Hard for me to Except Help

As pastors we are like first responders, always there, trying to help trying to be the calm at the end of a rocky storm So how come it is hard for clergy, well maybe just me to seek out help when life is tough. Why do I think people will think less than me if I have troubles. Part of claiming our authority is to claim the normal part of us/me. I get cranky, sad mad angry, but I also get happy, joyful, playful. I would tell my folks in a heart beat that they need to take care of themselves. But why? Is it because my self esteem is not always the best? Maybe I think I can help people but don't need help my self. Hmm. Probably more to come.